I Can Only Take You So Far….

I’ve entered month eight.

That in and of itself feels like an accomplishment in contrast to where I was the night of Christmas when my entire world took a hard turn.

In a moment, the chest scans spoke louder than any words could. The milky white clusters scattered throughout my lungs and below my right kidney strongly suggested stage 4 cancer. To say the feeling was surreal is an understatement. Momentarily disconnecting from myself, half wishing this nightmare in front of me was the story of another, I reached for my phone to call my partner. Perhaps I wanted it to be a dream, but this felt sickeningly real.

The months that followed the diagnosis have proven to challenge me and those who love me, in ways I could not have imagined. Cancer is indeed a journey of body, soul and mind.

During these past months, I’ve shared my very personal and honest updates with friends and family over Facebook and Caring Bridge. I now want to share with the public, hoping that some goodness will come out of this personal struggle through uncertainty, adversity, love, and my approach to meeting Death.

From this point forward, I’ll share my journey with you from the depths of my experience. I’ll be candid and forthright with my challenges and engage with your comments. I’ll take you as far along in the journey as. my body will allow.